I am one of twins. We were remarkably    alike. I know about this from photos  taken of us when we were toddlers. 
I never had the opportunity to meet her. 
She entered this world first and left first. 

My maternal family is a twin-heavy  family. My late grandma and his  deceased sibling both had twins. It dates all the way back to my  great grandparents and beyond.

Though I had never met my twin, I had constantly dreamed of her for years. I sincerely wish we had grown up together and that I had  known her. I used to envision
our future selves. Given my wild personality, I grin at such notions. We’d be two wild girls running around. Yes, my replica.

she had to depart early because our
Maker needed her.

Maybe I’ll also have twins or triplets 
so that I won’t have to give birth so
frequently. I have always desired it.

Only time will tell.


Having a sizable number of male friends yet had few female friends  growing up. There were eight girls in all. After school, we would always hang out. Except for myself, they  were all junior choir members at church. Funny enough, I never joined the choir, but I’ll always accompany  them  to choir practice.

Fortunately and unfortunately, after I graduated from junior high, I had to leave my friends. My family moved from the area to our new house.

We all sang, so after they ministered  with  the junior choir, in children’s  ministry class, we all had solo or pair  ministry opportunities.

After fifteen or sixteen years, I finally  hear from everyone except one we are still looking for. Unexpectedly, I ran across a church member from my early years. She provided me with one of my friend’s contact information.  I was also informed, that my friend has  been searching everywhere for me,  my friend offered her phone number  in case the church member runs into  me. Thankfully, we did cross paths.

Given that it was an international  number, I contacted her via WhatsApp  as soon as I got home.  

Oh, there was a lot of catching up to do. 

How funny, that my childhood friend  has become a mother. She is a nurse,  is married, and resides in the States  with her spouse.

Through her, I was put in touch with another person who is currently  pursuing her master’s degree in Hong Kong and is also married.

She set up a video call with another  who  lives just about 3 kilometres  away from me. That chick is weird and exists in her own universe, hehe.  She recalls every detail of that time. She truly is our archive. She is an  academia and about to pursue a 
doctorate. She’s with a scientific and research institution. She is blatantly single.

Another is married with three  children and is in shoe business. Though she had grown to be quite one, she was a troubling type. She was the one closest to me.

One of us who was the least attractive has evolved into the most attractive. I am stunned and still have no idea how that occurred. Oh, she’ll kill me if she reads this. Despite her  beauty, she is single. What a waste! Lol

Then, our information specialist. Yeah, that’s what we call her since she recalls each guy who had a crush on us as well as the ones we had  crushed on. Another insane
 individual. She is a nurse as well.

And lastly, myself, whom you are  already familiar with.

We have a created WhatsApp group  that we try to engage at least once a week since we don’t want 
to be out of contact any longer.

I’m really proud with how well my  girls turned out. 


“If you can’t find love, go for the money”,  I once read. I do not agree with the  statement as I have always chosen  personality over money. However,  some men are to blame for women  chasing wealth instead of  character.

Two accomplished bachelors in their 30s, one a doctor and the other a road  contractor, asked me to be their woman  last month. When I consider my life today,  I could have seized the opportunity, like  other women,  but I chose not to.

Interestingly, these two gentlemen’s  pride was wounded because, in their  minds, they should rather reject women  because they are  successful.

The doctor had the guts to tell me that  since I was getting older, I shouldn’t refuse  him. All attempts to convince him that  statement  that was impolite failed. 

He reiterated that he wouldn’t pursue me,  therefore I should reconsider my choice  because, as a doctor, he doesn’t have time  to waste. He doesn’t chase as he’s  successful.

Oh my!
Who in their right mind would flaunt about their success this way?

The contractor claimed he would  support me financially, but since I refused him,there is no way  he will  put money into an endeavor that will not  yield a return.

How on earth am I expected to fall for  such whacko men. When I can’t stomach how snotty, their personality is,  how can I ever chase the money?

Women will continue to fake in order to 
obtain a man’s money as some guys  do not like the reality.


Seriously, what’s wrong with some   Parents?. Why do they decide to handle  rape issues themselves. Why is there  law in the first place?

I’ll be sharing a story about a dear friend  today. He shares his story from when  he was very young. When it came to  food, especially animal product, he  was picky. He began experiencing  right lung pain in 2009, and it persisted  into this year. He visited hospitals for scans, but was informed he was well;  yet, the issue persisted until he made  the decision to cease ingesting animal  products. He said that despite his  inner voice constantly warning  him not to eat animal products,  he chose to disregard it.

He had a deep sense of kinship  with nature as a child. His entire  body, from head to toe, vibrates. He  didn’t resume having the sensation till he started doing rigorous  meditations recently. 

It was as though the universe was  calling  him, he told me.

In 2018, he started practicing meditation,  but he never really took it seriously.  This year, the calling reappeared. He felt it quite strongly. The areas of his  body that vibrated the most were his  stomach, chest, throat and forehead. He’s always had the feeling that he doesn’t belong here. He had a  sense of being an outsider. He’s made  attempts to blend in, but it never succeeds.

In addition, he has battled depression  since 2020 and sexual addictions  since he was 9 years old. He was  gang raped by five women when he  was 6 years old. His mother discovered the five women alternately raping him.

Such heinousness!

He being a young boy caused the issue to die naturally.

Most of what he revealed to me, which he believes is a process, he has never truly disclosed to anyone, but he is happy to have started the healing  process and by sharing with the world. He’s just happy that he has  finally mustered the strength to face  his demons because he knows that others have endured worse.
He said, that his spiritual quest and  meditation have greatly aided him in  establishing his grounding and starting  the path toward self-mastery.

“My family has been concerned that  I am heading in the wrong direction,  but since I made the decision to  start this journey, face and embrace  my shadow side, and start to heal,  I have never felt more confident in  my life”, he asserted vehemently.

“I normally meditate for about ten  minutes before waking up, choosing  an uplifting tune for the day, and  then I go outside, walk barefoot on  the grass and meditate for at least   an hour, he explained. Before I go  to sleep, I also meditate for about
 an hour, I use these meditations to  really enter myself and start  healing from old traumas, and to  also feel a connection to the  environment and everything
around me “. He further explained.

He has been researching the causes  of his  body’s vibrations. He learned  a lot from his  research, including  the fact that meditation and eating a  balanced diet are two ways to activate  these vibrations. When he fasts and  only eats fruits to break the fast, the vibrations are really strong.
His dreams are also more vivid.

His hair is now locs. He feels that hair  is sacred and shouldn’t be cut because      it is a necessary step in the spiritual path.

“To be honest; I haven’t been a Christian  in a long time”, he stated. He also said, that he didn’t frequently attend church,
especially while he was in college. 
His father questioned whether he was still a Christian, and he said honestly that he wasn’t.
Much may be avoided if parents would  simply take the time to consider the  psychological repercussions that rape  has on their kids. I’ve also shared my  experience on this site.

Rape shouldn’t be taken lightly.

Regardless, I respect my friend’s decision 
and every course he has chosen. I only
 hope he’s headed in the right direction.


I believed I finally found him amidst  everything that is going on in my life.
“The ONE”
Both he and I are extremely smitten with  each other.We got along great. 
With him, I’m totally me.

First and foremost, he is a God-loving 
man who is also wise, humorous and attentive.

He’s ice, while I’m fire. 

We have similar values and interests.
Despite the fact that he isn’t physically  present, even though I know I want to be  with him, I can’t help but worry since  he isn’t actually here, he might cause  problems.

I occasionally find his casual 
attitude toward most things bothersome.

I learned from our talks that he still has a lot to sort out in his life.He does, however,  know that he likes  me and wants to try things out with me.

Should I proceed without hesitation  or should I give the benefit of the doubt?
is the question I’ve been asking myself.

My heart isn’t at peace, but my head is.

With the appropriate person, shouldn’t  one feel at ease and confident?

The past of a person should be left  in the past,  but I always  look for lessons  there.Both he and I have our own past.
He claims to becoming more responsible,  but, as I previously mentioned, he’s still figuring things out.

A guy(B) and I were having a back-and -forth conversation before i met this current guy(A).He is intelligent, but i later  discovered  that many things of  his are not compatible with mine. 

Finding the type I desire is difficult,  therefore making the decision was  difficult. I ultimately made a change
Finally, I moved on.

Mr. (A) appeared just when I believed I  couldn’t find my type. 
I wouldn’t have met man (A) if I hadn’t  taken the risk of leaving guy (B).
I wasn’t really into guy (B), therefore  it was a  little less difficult than  with guy (A).

My heart had every reason to be uneasy. 
The current guy just came clean  with me  about his complicated  relationship…Heavens.

He never mentioned his relationship  status directly.For reasons I don’t  understand, he finally revealed his  relationship status  today after weeks  of me asking.He thinks there is no  future with his girlfriend, but they  are still together.And he isn’t  yet ready to discuss his problematic  connection in further detail.

The tragic reality is that I had begun to  feel something for him. 
 Although he is not in love with me, he  does not want to lose me,he says.

I firmly told him that he cannot have me.

I thought I had my ideal man…poor me

No new Friends

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No new Friends


Sermon by Pastor Raymond Keable

1Thes Lesson #1: Introduction

1Thessalonians is the 2nd epistle written by Paul. I favor Galatians being 1st. Why?
In Acts 13, 14 Paul and Barnabas went on their first apostolic journey which took them into Galatia – cities like Antioch, Lystra, Derbe, etc. I believe soon after Paul returned from this journey he wrote the letter to the Galatians.
Acts 14:27-28: 27 And when they were come, and had gathered the church together, they rehearsed all that
God had done with them, and how he had opened the door of faith unto the Gentiles. 28 And there they abode
long time with the disciples.
Gal 1:6: 6 I marvel that ye are so soon removed from him that called you into the grace of Christ unto another
gospel: …

The order of the Acts period epistles: Gal (?); 1Thes (Acts 18); 2Thes & 1Cor (Acts 19); 2Cor & Rom (Acts 20)
—1Thes is the first or second epistle but it is the last in canonical order. Why? Rom – 2Thes are the 9 epistles Paul wrote to the local churches. 1 & 2 Tim, Titus, & Philemon are “pastoral” epistles because they are written to individuals, to persons, not churches.
—There are four “gospels” in scripture: Matthew – John. This is because there is a four-fold doctrinal view that is presented, four distinctly different points about Messiah that the O.T. prophets told Israel to look for, which is what these four books present. There are doctrinal reasons for this! The so-called conflicts between these four books have to do with the way they are structured in order to accomplish God’s desire & design. (King, servant, man, God)
In Paul’s epistles, you have the same issue going on … for doctrinal reasons!

—People say: Let us study them chronologically, the order in which they were written. But the Bible does not do this, for doctrinal reasons. Paul’s epistles are ordered & organized based on Rom 16:25-26 & 2Tim 3:16-17:
The edification design, the information we need to learn first, then next, & so forth!
—This is done in order to carry you from milk to meat, from being a baby, unskilled in the Word, to being an adult with skill: Romans, the doctrine designed to orient you to grace; to 1 & 2 Cor & Gal, which are commentaries … reproof & correction on the doctrine of Romans:
Rom 16:25-26: 25 Now to him that is of power to stablish you according to my gospel, and the preaching of
Jesus Christ, according to the revelation of the mystery, which was kept secret since the world began, 16 But
now is made manifest, and by the scriptures of the prophets, according to the commandment of the
everlasting God, made known to all nations for the obedience of faith:

—Then, Ephesians carries you into the orientation toward the goal for which God created the church, the B.O.C.
—Then, Phil & Col are reproof & correction about the doctrine in Ephesians.
—After this, 1 & 2 Thes teaches you about the glory the Lord is going to have when He executes His purpose. After this, there is no more reproof & correction. If you studied them in God’s order, they would do for you what they are designed to do! This is why they are not in chronological order, to give you this edification design!
—And yet, when you study Acts & the epistles Paul wrote during the Acts period, you can identify when he wrote most of them. He wrote:
Gal written first: before Acts 18. Any time after Acts 15: This chapter coincides with, corresponds to Galatians 2.
1Thes written from Corinth in Acts 18.
2Thes written from Ephesus in Acts 19. 1Cor written from Ephesus in Acts 19.
2Cor written from Macedonia in Acts 20. Rom written from Corinth in Acts 20.

The reason for the written order of six of Paul’s epistles in Acts is opposite from the edification issue. How so?
—When you want to know & deal with the issues that come up in the ministry, the issues are going to be the things of the contrary mind … THE OPPOSITION! This is where the chronological order helps you! Again, why?
—You can start with Gal & you can work your way through 1 & 2 Thes, 1 & 2 Cor, & so forth (the order in which they are written), & you will discover that in each of these books there were problems Paul was seeking to correct.
—The chronological order identifies for you, in the reality of life & ministry, the issues you are going to face!

—This is really the order in which the problems will come at you. This helps when you get involved in the work of the ministry … to be on guard in looking for & being aware of what we will be dealing with.

So, there is a doctrinal design either way to do it!
—We are much more concerned about the edification design (Rom 16:25-26), but it is important to understand that the design associated with the chronological order in which they were written is also important for our ministry.
Nothing in scripture is unimportant!
The popular view of the book of Acts is that it is a history of the birth of the church. Rather than being a book on the history of the church, it is a record of the fall of Israel & God’s right & justice of setting Israel aside & turning to the Gentiles through Paul’s ministry! Not the beginnings of the church! The Acts time period is an incubator for the fledging new church, the BOC & new dispensation, both which began in Acts 9!

Read Acts 9:15 & Rom 11:11-12

The other edification passage!
2 Tim 3:16-17: 16 All scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for
correction, for instruction in righteousness: 17 That the man of God may be perfect, throughly furnished unto all
good works. Notice what Paul does at the end of every epistle:
1 Cor 16:21: 21 The salutation of me Paul with mine own hand. salutation: A greeting; either written or oral.
Col 4:18: 18 The salutation by the hand of me Paul. Remember my bonds. Grace be with you. Amen.
2 Thes 3:17: 17 The salutation of Paul with mine own hand, which is the token in every epistle: so I write.
token: a sign, a mark, one that distinguishes you from others & is known. Your signature!

It looks like Paul “physically” wrote only 2 of his 13 Epistles. The rest he dictated to scribes or secretaries.
Gal 6:11: 11 Ye see how large a letter I have written unto you with mine own hand. (Philemon 1:18-21)
—One of the reasons why I believe Gal was written first is because of the response to the message: anger, unbelief.
—Why would Paul personally write an epistle with his own hand to the Galatians? Is it because they were attacked first? Does this lend credibility to Galatians being his first epistle? Gal 2:14; 3:1-3; 4:9, 16; 5:7 The phrase in 2Tim 3:17: throughly furnished (Gk 1882), is used 2 times. In Acts 21:5: accomplished.

This phrase is fitted with an interesting Greek preposition: Ek (Gk 1537)
Preposition: in grammar, a word usually put before another to express some relation or quality, action or motion to or from the thing specified.
Ek: a primary preposition used for Gk 1882: to fit out (time); figuratively, to equip fully (teacher): to complete; to furnish perfectly (fitted with necessaries … things necessary for some purpose), denoting origin from the point from which action or motion proceeds. (Things to shun & things to seek: 2Tim 2:22-26)
Ek: denotes as well exit or emission out of, as a separation from something with which there has been a close connection! HOW CLOSE OF A CONNECTION DO WE HAVE WITH OUR OLD SIN NATURE?
Job 15:16: 16 How much more abominable and filthy is man, which drinketh iniquity like water?

Isa 1:3-4: 3 The ox knoweth his owner, and the ass his master’s crib: but Israel doth not know, my people doth not consider. 4 Ah sinful nation, a people laden with iniquity, a seed of evildoers, children that are corrupters: they have forsaken the Lord, they have provoked the Holy One of Israel unto anger, they are gone away backward.

It was under Paul’s ministry when believers were 1st called Christians. A title never used prior to Acts 11:26!
Acts 11:26: 26 And when he had found him, he brought him unto Antioch. And it came to pass, that a whole
year they assembled themselves with the church, and taught much people. And the disciples were called
Christians first in Antioch. This makes Paul’s writings the first & earliest Christian literature!
—The title “Christian” was not just for the church, the B.O.C., in the dispensation of grace. Peter also uses the term:
1 Pet 4:16: 16Yet if any man suffer as a Christian, let him not be ashamed; but let him glorify God on this behalf.
Do you know how you can prove the Hebrew epistles were not written to us today?

Read Heb 12:29; Jas 1:1; 1Pet 2:12; 1Pet 4:3; 3John 1:7; Rev 1:6

In Thessalonica, people became Christians under much persecution! 1Thes 1:5-6; 2:1-2
The Thessalonians glorified God in four ways:
1. 1Thes 2:13: they received His Word.
2. 1Thes 2:13: they believed His Word.
3. 1Thes 1:6: they relied upon the Word regardless of experience.
4. 1Thes 3:3-5: they knew how to fight against the tempter.
1 Thes 3:1-5: 1 Wherefore when we could no longer forbear, we thought it good to be left at Athens alone; 2 And sent Timotheus, our brother, and minister of God, and our fellowlabourer in the gospel of Christ, to establish you, and to comfort you concerning your faith: 3 That no man should be moved by these afflictions: for yourselves know that we are appointed thereunto. 4 For verily, when we were with you, we told you before that we should suffer tribulation; even as it came to pass, and ye know. 5 For this cause, when I could no longer forbear, I sent to know your faith, lest by some means the tempter have tempted you, and our labour be in vain.


I’m strong, assertive and vocal. 
While the majority of people find me  intimidating, many appear to adore  my demeanor. Men tend to be
dominant by nature, but they also  have an ingrained desire to rule me.

Others who can’t seem to control me  claim that I’m not fun for them or that  I’m too challenging for them, despite  the fact that some people naturally  embrace challenges.
Small conversation is something that  most ladies appreciate, therefore you  can probably guess what will happen  next given that I don’t like it.

I’m well aware that I infect other folks. When I chat to most people,  they start to sound like me, which can be unpleasant at times. Hearing me talk is also not enjoyable.
It’s not enjoyable to me since they  react too strongly when I’m being overly sweet with them. I assume 
they share my sentiments. 
You get what I’m saying?

But well, that’s just how I am. 
Why must they be like me? Most likely because they also aim to be 

But I’m a nice creature, smiles

PS: Due to some personal issues, I will  be intermittently available. Xoxo